Relaxation and Redecorating 06/01/2011
A very eventful weekend. Took a drive to see Riki's family and went to this amazing music festival out at the lake. Had such an amazing weekend. Finn was able to put his feet in the sand for the first time. It wasn't the ocean but I think he gets the general idea!   We had such an amazing time. It had been awhile since we just took a day and relaxed with friends and family. It was long overdue.  I also feel so much better lately. I had been having an itch for change. ANY change. I just wanted to go somewhere, see a change of scenery. And since our vacation isn't for a month or so I decided to redecorate my house. And surprisingly it worked wonders! I feel so much more at peace in my house. Even though my redecorating really just consisted of moving around old furniture and spending the day antique shopping with my mother to get a few new things, it feels like an entire different energy. We where having problems with finding an open area for Finn to roll around so I took out our dining room table (we never sit at it) and instead made a little "library" for Finn to keep all his books and can crawl and read to his hearts content.  And on my last note, I am currently looking for sponsors for my blog. Please feel free to contact me about sponsorship.  3 Comments Refresh 05/21/2011
 Spring. Finally here. I cannot begin to say how much I needed this season. The winter has gone taking with it the cold, dead and dark and has now been replaced with the ever changing moods of Spring. The life it brings also echoes in me. I feel so refreshed. I frequent the outdoors more and more, finding it hard to stay indoors. Even just leaving open the windows to let the fresh air come in seems to calm my soul. With all the changes happening it seems appropriate that the seasons seems to be at ever changing whims as well. Rainy and flooding one day, warm and sunny the next. Even mother nature seems to have her mood swings!  My sweet son is ever changing as well. 7 months has came and made me realize how fast he is changing and growing. So quickly! It is the most amazing thing to watch him learn. He looks at the world with such fascination. Wouldn't it be wonderful for us grown ups to still look at the world like children do?  shot with a Nikon d3100 and 55mm lens Finn does seem to have an issue with solid food. Cannot seem to get the concept of it down. I believe that he doesn't like the texture of the pureed food I have been trying to feed him. And of course who would blame him?! I am going to try to make my own meals, my mom got me an amazing baby food processor I have been dying to try out. So I hope it works!  teeth! Another new development is the appearance of his first 2 teeth! They are razor sharp and ready to sink into anything that gets in his way. Or sight for that matter. And that includes fingers! Finn's room is finished as well. The contractors did a beautiful job. The light sage green is so perfect. The whole room has such a peaceful vibe. I can see him playing and sleeping in that utopia of a nursery. Slowly our little home is being pieced together to our liking. I think the living room is next!  my boys. I just had to throw this one up here! And the last thing I will leave you with is my dread locks. They are locking nicely, though my scalp is protesting them with great exuberance. They look beautiful and I am so happy with them.  2 and a half months Renovating and Rebuilding 04/22/2011
Little by little our house is becoming a home. Contractors will be here Monday, which will take a huge weight off my shoulders. I don't know about you but I know nothing about drywall! But as we rebuild I can't help but shake the longing to leave this state. It seems stale here. I have changed so much but nothing with me. Stagnant. I cannot seem to hold on to genuine friends. I have been lucky to find one good girl I have found to be quiet a sweetheart. But in the midst of everything I still long for kinship. It seems I always bend over backwards for someone and it is never returned or even acknowledged. Well enough boo wooing, and on to some cute photos!  Our dog Brody giving kisses to her boy  My boys! Riki has been working a lot lately. It was difficult always having him work. But now he finally has a few days off. We just drove around today, being in each others company was nice. It was rainy today, the thunder was brilliant!  Riki took some photos of us outside while we took a walk. And I took some of our "backward."   A whole new energy 04/12/2011
Wow. so many things have happened. I feel like everything has changed. Which it has! A whole new energy has filled me and our little household. We have decided to move to a bigger home. It was actually my childhood house which I love the idea that my son will be running and playing in the same house I did. Its like everything has come full circle. We are completely remodeling. Refinishing the floors, repainting...it is overwhelming at times, but at the same time it is the first time I have been able to have a home completely of myself. The color, the vibe, the energy will all be us. Today we worked for a few hours in the kitchen. Every trash bag I emptied, every nail removed felt like we are getting closer to our goal. To have a beautiful home to raise our son in. With an earthy vibe and an easy atmosphere. I have plenty of land to garden and raise animals. And a rather large area to fence in for my "secret" garden. A place of retreat where Finn can play and I can build my koi pond. I see everything in my head and it relaxes me even while it gets overwhelming. I am going for a gypsy cottage feel, it that makes any sense. With my beautiful, fairy garden ( I have already established quite an impressive gnome collection for just this purpose!) and plenty of clean air for Finn to breath, green grass for him to roll in, and a whole forest of trees to climb in.  the driveway  this is part of the front yard. has a raised garden bed for beautiful flowers   Finn and I surveying the land I also finally tilled the garden plot and will the planting this weekend. The weather has been fickle lately so I decided to wait a bit to plant. I did not want to lose my plants!  all tilled! We decided to hold off on buying goats since we will be taking on the remodeling of house. I don't want us to get overwhelmed with projects. Goats and hens next year, house and garden this year. Such an amazing feeling, working and seeing your results. So far, if everything goes as planned, we will be moving in my June! And last but not least, I felt I had to share this photo I took of Finn and Riki at the park. It touched my heart, Riki is so gentle and sweet with Finn. These photos just seem to glow with love.   Dread Head 03/29/2011
So I officially have dreads. It has been a long, hard decision of what to do with my long hair. I haven't had long hair since I was 13, and since it was now down to my shoulder blades I had to figure out what to do with it! I wasn't happy with just pulling back, and it took a year to grow so I didn't want to cut it. I loved my synthetic dread wraps I had had and in my heart I knew that that was all that I wanted. After much deliberation, planning, and re planning, my journey to dread locks has ended with a fuzzy head and happy me. I had dyed my hair a bright red color the night before and HATED it. I had missed some spots and I felt I looked very goofy. But my stylist assured me that locks have a way of fixing bad dye jobs. And she was right. The red now looks beautiful and my fuzzy locks are a beautiful shade of red. I am so happy with them. I feel like a whole new person. It took me a while to get comfortable and happy with the way I looked. After having my son I completely reinvented myself. Such a dramatic changed had happened in my life, and I felt my former life shed away. And with it, many of my thoughts changed, my heart, and eventually my clothing choices. I feel peaceful with my life and where I am, and now I feel I reflect that peacefulness with my outer appearance. I have changed. I am different. And I feel perfect. It was such a long journey to finally come to a beautiful conclusion. My stress, my anger and the empty feeling I had felt for so long as been nullified and replaced with a sense of peace and beauty. I feel my son and the change of scenery did that for me. And I couldn't be happier. My husband and son are so amazing and my life is so full of love that there is no more room for negativity. I have my art. I have love. And all you need is love.  Day 1 of natural dreads. Taken with a tripod and a Canon Rebel XT  Day 1 of the natural dreading process. Taken with a tripod and a Canon Rebel XT Spring has Sprung! 03/21/2011
Finally! Spring is here. This has been the longest winter to me. I feel mostly because I was stranded in the house for almost 3 weeks. I love my home, but sometimes just the option of leaving is nice! Wild Child has turn 5 months old, and is learning all kinds of cute new things! Like how to sit by himself and play. Which is amazing for me, I just read, or sit next to him and watch at his delight at playing with his books and toys by himself. He is such a wonder! I think the ground is finally ready for me to tackle my most daunting task yet...gardening. My first real garden since I was 12 and helped my mother in our vegetable garden. I am so excited, and nervous at the same time. I hope I get it all right. This morning I woke up to roses and a home cooked breakfast courtesy of my husband. I am so thankful for him, I love him so much and its so nice that he still does these things for me. Thought I would share some photos of our St. Patricks Day (a very big deal in our house, as we are actually Irish haha) We went downtown and watched an amazing band play and mingled with other folks. It was a fun day all in all.    My mom and I dug out her wheat mill from storage and cannot wait to start grinding our own wheat to make bread. Homemade bread is by far, the best smell in the world. Sorry such a short post but I have lots to do today, including cutting out the squares for Wild Child's first quilt. Phew, I haven't made a quilt in years. Everyone cross their fingers! I leave you with a photo of my beautiful son I took in honor of his 5 months.  Valentines Day and Looming 02/15/2011
Well there isn't much to blog about. Well except for the still melting snow that covers our land and driveway like an oppressive fluffy blanket. Everyone else seems to be fine, of course we live so far off the beaten path, the trees shadows much of our driveway making it nearly impossible to pass. We have resorted to walking down our very long driveway, through the muck and melting snow to the car we have to park elsewhere. So taxing! Of course Wild Child takes much enjoyment from the long walk. He sits in his carrier looking in awe at the beauty of the nature around him. Taking it all in for the first time. It brings me joy just watching the amazement on his little face. How amazing it must be, looking at something we take for granted (or for me complain about!) for the first time. Melting snow and mud are just the beginning for him. And it makes me happy. Wild Child has found his feet at last! One day he touched his toes and he hasn't looked back! All he wants to do is hold his feet like they will walk away without him. Changing his diaper has become more challenging thanks to his new discovery!  Valentines Day was amazing. Not the same as pre-baby years, but it was so fun at the same time. We went to dinner with our little man, which he decided would be fun to wake up right as my fettuccine Alfredo arrived and demanded to be fed. It was quite a funny situation, him clawing at my shirt while I tried to (discreetly) feed him in a crowded restaurant. I never have a problem breastfeeding in public, but it was different while I was dressed up and NOT in a booth. I find it much harder to nurse while in a chair trying to balance him AND hold the blanket in place! My husband bought me a bamboo plant and a cute garden gnome for my present. I love it so much, I put it right above the sink in the window with the most light. And now my gnome collection grows...  I have also become obsessed with knitting using a loom. It is so simple and fast! And when you are someone like me who not only has very little time, but also only a tiny bit of patience it is amazing! I made my husband and son a hat in record time. And they fit! You just can't beat the feeling of seeing your family in things you made them. So much better than just picking them off a rack at a store. And cheaper!  Riki wearing the hat I made him  Wild Child sporting his new cap All in all winter has been good to me this year. Aside from the 2 and a half feet of snow. I still cannot wait for spring! I am so excited to start my vegetable garden and plant my flowers. Blizzard of 2011 02/06/2011
Well goodness it has been awhile since I have updated, but so much has happened! Well, to begin a blizzard, yes a blizzard, has decided to come through Oklahoma of all places taking us all by surprise. We have been snowed in for over a week now, being as our driveway is so long it is treacherous getting out in this weather. We have been keeping our house warm courtesy of our fireplace and the large pile of split wood courtesy of my husband. My Wild Child has been so peaceful. I think the long period of time just being at the house, being together with no interference, no running of errands or long trips to the nearest city. He is a homebody like I am. I have been quite content. Thankfully I had purchased my sewing machine only a few days before the storm hit, so I have been practicing albeit unsuccessfully. Though I did manage a shirt for Wild Child that I am proud of, considering it to be my first. I am trying to make some cloth diapers next. A seemingly simple pattern so I hope I am more successful at that! I have been wanting to use cloth diapers on my son since he was born but was unable to at first. While inexpensive after you buy them, it is rather expensive to start. All the different selections made my head spin! So I decided to take it back to the simplicity of bargain fabric and a sewing machine. I believe I have made the right choice. But of course I won't know until I have the finished project in my hands and on my baby! Since this whole weather fiasco, I have been documenting the whole event with my camera. Enjoy!  Poor Brody could barely move in the deep snow!  Though I am not a big winter fan, it is beautiful  no this is not snow, but my hair looked amazing that day!  Taken on the last warm day before the snow came... p.s. I finally finished the website for Vira Dee Photography. Feel free to check it out! www.viradeestudios.weebly.com Sewing Machine fun and Vira Dee Photography 01/27/2011
So I have finally been able to purchase a sewing machine! I have been eying one for awhile now (way on sale. just the way I like it!) and it has finally happened! It is now nestled in my crafting room on a desk that my husbands grandmother gave us. Its so amazing and I really am surprised at how much I remember from Home Economics in high school. I was able to modify a few shirts for myself and I am really happy with the results. I am looking forward to being able to make things for Finn and my family. Now if only I could figure out how to read patterns... My Finn has a tooth breaking in and its causing him so much grief. I feel so sorry for him, I have been rubbing some oragel on his gums for some fast relief and he drifts off the sleep quickly as I am sure he finally relaxes when the numbness sets in. As soon as it is cleared with his pediatrician I am going to introduce some Popsicles and frozen bananas. This morning, I was just cuddling with him and he was babbling away, telling me a story I am sure! And just looking in his eyes is so intense. I never understood what people meant when they said this, but just looking at my son he seems like such an old soul. Like he has it figured out. He has such an intense gaze and it makes me so happy that he is alert and focuses. Even when he was born he did not cry, we just locked eyes and stared at each other. Like he knew, oh this is my mother! I am totally safe. The staff had even commented on how alert he was. The doctor had told us that she had not been at such a calm, peaceful birth in years. And that was exactly how I wanted it. Calm and peaceful. I did not want him born into a world of screaming and stress. There will be enough of that to deal with when he is an adult! I feel so blessed to be given this child.  I have finally been able to capture some photos of Finn wearing the cap I made him in the studio with my husbands help. I picked a few to share!    Winter Weather 01/20/2011
 Well, for once, the weather forecast was correct. We now have about 2 inches of snow. It was so pretty this morning, everything was dusted white and it was bitterly cold. I am not much of a winter person, but it was exciting to see Finn's face when he saw the snow falling. His eyes where so wide! On another note, yesterday when I looked outside, right next to the wood I saw something creeping along. It was a possum just nosing around in broad daylight. To be honest I have not seen a possum out much in the daylight.  I snapped some adorable photos of Finn I thought I would share. He has been teething so he i gumming nearly everything in his sight.    I feel for my starshine. He is in such pain with his teeth. I have been rubbing oragel on his sore gums and giving him some toys to gum. I have been reading to him like crazy, since it distracts him from his first transition into toddler hood. He does adore books and getting read to. It makes me happy, since I was, and still am, quite a bookworm. Gave cooking another try yesterday. I was actually surprise at the result. Spaghetti and garlic toast. I enjoyed the process, was surprisingly relaxing. Even though I forgot to put the garlic toast in the oven, so it was a little late but it was still delicious! I would write more, but I am tired and have to get back to Finn. |  Indie Mama
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